All written works displayed are (C) K.E. Wright, excluding song lyrics in text.
You know that sinking feeling in the
pit of your stomach when you realize you really shouldn't have done
I've been really well acquainted with
that sensation in the last few months.
I'm head-over-heels with my current
lover, as has been proven by the fact we've been together for six months now.
I'm not someone who falls in love often. In fact, I think this may be only the
second time I've ever fallen in love. As such, I want to share my everything
with my lover. It's really strange, since it's the exact opposite of what I do
with any average sex partner. But I love Grimm desperately, so I want him to
know me inside and out.
So I introduced him to my friends, my
co-workers, and the other people who qualify as practically family.
It was about a day after I'd done that
before I realized that I'd introduced him to a few of my exes along the way.
And, of course that realization hit me when he began to hang out with one of
I'm not really a jealous person. I
mean, I usually don't care who Grimm socializes with. But when he hung out with
Ichi… well, it was different. I don't know if it just rubbed me the wrong way
or what, but I hated it when he hung out with
Ichi. I had a tendency to get really snappish if I knew he was with him, and I
tended to cringe whenever Ichigo's name was brought up in conversation by anyone.
I didn't understand why it bothered me
so much. I mean, Ichigo and I had been over a long time before I met Grimm. It
wasn't like I still had any feelings for Ichi. And it wasn't like Ichi had any
leftover feelings for me, either. Perhaps it was looking at them sitting at the
bar and laughing and realizing that they looked good together, that they
had a good chemistry together. Maybe it wasn't so much about residual feelings
between me and my ex and it was instead about the fact I could see my ex and my
lover together in a way that would break my heart.
However, in the interest of keeping my
lover happy, I kept my mouth shut on the matter. He'd become good friends with
Ichi –good enough friends that he and Ichi often hung out when Ichi had a day
off. I knew Grimm wasn't the type to cheat, but that didn't make me like the
way Ichi touched him when they were together. Some animalistic part of me
wanted to snarl and hiss each and every time he touched Grimm. I restrained
myself for the sake of not driving off my wonderful
lover, who put up with a lot from me, anyway.
But it felt like he was spending more
time with Ichigo than with me, recently, and it was getting hard to keep my
"Grimm, the glares he keeps
sending me are going to burn me like acid," Ichigo remarked wryly as he
sat next to me at the bar.
I smiled weakly. "Sorry about
that. It should all be better tomorrow."
Ichi gave me an indulgent smile.
"Ah, it's alright, Grimm. He glared at me like this a lot when we were
Statements like that had made me
incredibly jealous until Ichi taken time to explain to me that when he and
Renji had been together, they had been casual sex partners, but Renji and I
were much more than that. "Yeah, but it's my fault he
keeps wanting to melt you into a puddle."
"You wanted to do something
special for you six-month anniversary. That is so freaking adorable that I can
forgive you anything," he told me. "Ah, I gotta go backstage and get
ready to dance. I kinda wanted to check on you. I'll see you. Tell me how he
I saluted him with the double of
whiskey I'd ordered to make it through until I could drag my lover home.
"Of course, sensei."
Ichigo grinned like a little boy and
I drained the glass with a wince. Here's
hoping I don't fall flat on my face.