Chapter 1
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Renji:
You know that sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach when you realize you really shouldn't have done something?
I've been really well acquainted with that sensation in the last few months.
I'm head-over-heels with my current lover, as has been proven by the fact we've been together for six months now. I'm not someone who falls in love often. In fact, I think this may be only the second time I've ever fallen in love. As such, I want to share my everything with my lover. It's really strange, since it's the exact opposite of what I do with any average sex partner. But I love Grimm desperately, so I want him to know me inside and out.
So I introduced him to my friends, my co-workers, and the other people who qualify as practically family.
It was about a day after I'd done that before I realized that I'd introduced him to a few of my exes along the way. And, of course that realization hit me when he began to hang out with one of them.
I'm not really a jealous person. I mean, I usually don't care who Grimm socializes with. But when he hung out with Ichi… well, it was different. I don't know if it just rubbed me the wrong way or what, but I hated it when he hung out with Ichi. I had a tendency to get really snappish if I knew he was with him, and I tended to cringe whenever Ichigo's name was brought up in conversation by anyone.
I didn't understand why it bothered me so much. I mean, Ichigo and I had been over a long time before I met Grimm. It wasn't like I still had any feelings for Ichi. And it wasn't like Ichi had any leftover feelings for me, either. Perhaps it was looking at them sitting at the bar and laughing and realizing that they looked good together, that they had a good chemistry together. Maybe it wasn't so much about residual feelings between me and my ex and it was instead about the fact I could see my ex and my lover together in a way that would break my heart.
However, in the interest of keeping my lover happy, I kept my mouth shut on the matter. He'd become good friends with Ichi –good enough friends that he and Ichi often hung out when Ichi had a day off. I knew Grimm wasn't the type to cheat, but that didn't make me like the way Ichi touched him when they were together. Some animalistic part of me wanted to snarl and hiss each and every time he touched Grimm. I restrained myself for the sake of not driving off my wonderful lover, who put up with a lot from me, anyway.
But it felt like he was spending more time with Ichigo than with me, recently, and it was getting hard to keep my cool.
You know that sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach when you realize you really shouldn't have done something?
I've been really well acquainted with that sensation in the last few months.
I'm head-over-heels with my current lover, as has been proven by the fact we've been together for six months now. I'm not someone who falls in love often. In fact, I think this may be only the second time I've ever fallen in love. As such, I want to share my everything with my lover. It's really strange, since it's the exact opposite of what I do with any average sex partner. But I love Grimm desperately, so I want him to know me inside and out.
So I introduced him to my friends, my co-workers, and the other people who qualify as practically family.
It was about a day after I'd done that before I realized that I'd introduced him to a few of my exes along the way. And, of course that realization hit me when he began to hang out with one of them.
I'm not really a jealous person. I mean, I usually don't care who Grimm socializes with. But when he hung out with Ichi… well, it was different. I don't know if it just rubbed me the wrong way or what, but I hated it when he hung out with Ichi. I had a tendency to get really snappish if I knew he was with him, and I tended to cringe whenever Ichigo's name was brought up in conversation by anyone.
I didn't understand why it bothered me so much. I mean, Ichigo and I had been over a long time before I met Grimm. It wasn't like I still had any feelings for Ichi. And it wasn't like Ichi had any leftover feelings for me, either. Perhaps it was looking at them sitting at the bar and laughing and realizing that they looked good together, that they had a good chemistry together. Maybe it wasn't so much about residual feelings between me and my ex and it was instead about the fact I could see my ex and my lover together in a way that would break my heart.
However, in the interest of keeping my lover happy, I kept my mouth shut on the matter. He'd become good friends with Ichi –good enough friends that he and Ichi often hung out when Ichi had a day off. I knew Grimm wasn't the type to cheat, but that didn't make me like the way Ichi touched him when they were together. Some animalistic part of me wanted to snarl and hiss each and every time he touched Grimm. I restrained myself for the sake of not driving off my wonderful lover, who put up with a lot from me, anyway.
But it felt like he was spending more time with Ichigo than with me, recently, and it was getting hard to keep my cool.
Grimmjow:
"Grimm, the glares he keeps sending me are going to burn me like acid," Ichigo remarked wryly as he sat next to me at the bar.
I smiled weakly. "Sorry about that. It should all be better tomorrow."
Ichi gave me an indulgent smile. "Ah, it's alright, Grimm. He glared at me like this a lot when we were together."
Statements like that had made me incredibly jealous until Ichi taken time to explain to me that when he and Renji had been together, they had been casual sex partners, but Renji and I were much more than that. "Yeah, but it's my fault he keeps wanting to melt you into a puddle."
"You wanted to do something special for you six-month anniversary. That is so freaking adorable that I can forgive you anything," he told me. "Ah, I gotta go backstage and get ready to dance. I kinda wanted to check on you. I'll see you. Tell me how he likes it?"
I saluted him with the double of whiskey I'd ordered to make it through until I could drag my lover home. "Of course, sensei."
Ichigo grinned like a little boy and hurried backstage.
I drained the glass with a wince.
Here's hoping I don't fall flat on my face.
"Grimm, the glares he keeps sending me are going to burn me like acid," Ichigo remarked wryly as he sat next to me at the bar.
I smiled weakly. "Sorry about that. It should all be better tomorrow."
Ichi gave me an indulgent smile. "Ah, it's alright, Grimm. He glared at me like this a lot when we were together."
Statements like that had made me incredibly jealous until Ichi taken time to explain to me that when he and Renji had been together, they had been casual sex partners, but Renji and I were much more than that. "Yeah, but it's my fault he keeps wanting to melt you into a puddle."
"You wanted to do something special for you six-month anniversary. That is so freaking adorable that I can forgive you anything," he told me. "Ah, I gotta go backstage and get ready to dance. I kinda wanted to check on you. I'll see you. Tell me how he likes it?"
I saluted him with the double of whiskey I'd ordered to make it through until I could drag my lover home. "Of course, sensei."
Ichigo grinned like a little boy and hurried backstage.
I drained the glass with a wince.
Here's hoping I don't fall flat on my face.